So technically I still have one month left of my “Pray” phase and to be completely honest I am over it! The meditating thing is driving me nuts! A part of me hoped that by now the penny would have dropped and I would just achieve inner peace in some weird cosmic flash. Sadly this is not the case. A lot of things are bubbling to the surface that I buried because they where too painful or shameful to deal with and I am finding myself confronted with them and I have no idea what to do. I do not want to go to therapy a) the financial factor b) the time factor and I think there should be a better way to deal with things.
One thing I have discovered through all of these confronting feelings is that after 4 years being single I am ready to move on. I have been slowly taking down my walls and I feel like I am that much closer to having none, to being ready to let someone in and love again. I have been talking to a pretty special guy but we have yet to actually do the “coffee” thing so hopefully it all pans out. He is really funny and smart and I enjoy talking to him. I think this whole “love” thing is going to be great. I can feel a new season of my life beginning and as I write more of my “relationship self-help book” this feeling is just getting stronger. So here is to LOVE EVERYWHERE! and love for me because it’s about freaking time!